I had trouble sleeping last night. I started out this year thinking it would be the best year in my life thus far. Unfortunately, some thing have happened in these early days of this year that could really make this year quite the opposite. So, this year will either turn out to be the best ever, or the worst.
I crawled into bed at a very early (for me at least) 2am because I had to get up at 7 to get a ride to the train. For several hours, I lied there, awake, just agonizing over the possible outcome present situations. At last, I had a thought that put me to sleep.
Every year can turn out to be the best or worst year of our lives. We’re always poised on the brink of uncertainty. It is how we weather the storms of life that determines how life plays out. I have no control over what happens to me; I only control how I react to those event. I’m not sure if this idea can stop the ulcer I feel forming in my gut, but it at least helped me to get to sleep.
Phew…so I’m not alone! Personally, I used to think it was easier to turn my back on a problem and hide. Now, all I have left are these haunting regrets, which surface at times and really bother me. I’m left to figure out what to do with these troubles. Maybe, I should just wait for another rainy day. As for now, I am trying really hard to accept my desicions and learn from the past.